Monday, June 23, 2008
i do not crumble
i learned that strength is something you choose
i woke up reluctantly
and only to find one of my toys on the floor
[you should know what]
it was irony, i didnt hug any to sleep that night
thought, "whatever"
and carried on with the daily school life routine
went back class expecting dirty black desk
however, it was shining new
i got so excited and happy until i realised something
and i got quite upset
MY BIG YELLOW SMILEY IS GONE
you may think this is nothing much
but hey!!
that's from my good friend
damn it, now it's gone.
so is my so-called 黃河..
and i really cant help but think
why are all my yellow stuffs gone?
it seems as if the person up there
doesnt wants me to be happy
but i am a stubborn kid remember?
the more you want me to be sad
the more i will be happy
be it fake, be it pretendings
even though it might hurt deep down
but i am doing it
i'm smiling my biggest smile
i dont know why
the rebellious side of me?
or maybe just to prevent the pleasure
people get when they see me in pain
haha, what am i saying huh?
okay, forget about what i've just typed
anyway a bag of sweets were on my table after recess
being such a fool, for a split second i thought..-sigh
thanks again anthony
:)
alrighty
3 hours of tuition later
i'll most probably be stoning for the first 1.5 hour
someday i'll be papering
and someday i'll try scissoring too.
i think i'm crazy.
bleed at 5:06:00 PM
